Getting My Articulation On (LOL)

Ok I'm getting really really excited now. I've prepared my letter for people to pray and donate if Lord willing.

But I do not believe the Lord wants me to pay for it myself (self reliance) which is the opposite of this effort and the point in all of this. The body of Christ and his people are to work together as a well functioning.. well..body. hehe. How exciting for others to take part in this journey or at least the knowledge what can be done. I think God's trying to teach me something in this.

We all have different gifts and are made so unique. How exciting. I guess that makes me who I am for a reason to be excited about the journey and about keeping the motivation throughout.

I also just realized I wrote "exciting or excited" about 4 times already. haha

God is consistently good all the time. Maybe that's the point.

In the Wildness But not Alone

I have to say today was a weird one. The reason why I am writing a second post is on the nature of Spiritual Warfare. Is this journey done alone? Or is it more than that.

Just as Jesus willfully prepared himself for his journey into ministry (as I have been studying with my life group from Bridgeway YAM) on the book of Mark. In Chapter 1, Jesus was baptized by John the Baptist in the Jordan River. After the Holy Spirit descending upon Jesus and the Heavens opening up (which to this day blows my mind). It states in verse 12:

"Then the Spirit then compelled Jesus to go into the wilderness, where he was tempted by Satan for forty days. He was out among the wild animals and angels took care of him. " NLT Mark 1:12-14.

Wow. Really? So my God of the Universe decided to place himself in an area of humility and tempation before doing ministry? At what times in my life have I been tempted/distracted before any major decision I've made out of fear? It always seems to me at every point in this journey will I be tempted or tried. I truly my spirit is being attacked for reasons unknown. Right now my life is weighing heavily on the questions I have in my life right now:

1. Am I bound for Malawi?
2. When is the right TIME for me to move?
   
3. Where does God want me to work (career and ministry too)?
   

Big things. But literally today just considering the possibility of doing Malawi I ended up with so much backlash from my family. Not fully in concern for my well being.. but a lack of understanding what my intent is. The timing seems right. I'm not gonna lie. Everything makes sense and my heart is at peace with the decision no matter what the outcome. This is most peace I've had in a while.

Like Jesus I feel like I'm in the wilderness...with the knowledge I'm not alone.

TEST 1...2...3

I've decided to create a blog. What better time than now, especially since I'm with the knowledge of what God has been doing in my heart these last few years. It has become more evident within the last MONTHS, that I am being prepared for something larger than myself.

Today was the first Malawi meeting with a few of the peeps from Bridgeway's Young Adult Ministry (YAM). Some of my thoughts have been tugging at my heart that I will need to pray about myself before I can form into words...

I am taking this experience as my ultimate test of my faith. I felt burdened back in November 2009 that I should be doing something with my degree, with my skills and gifting. That was when I felt that it was time to get a passport. I have this desire to live the way God has made me. I studied Nutrition and Dietetics to impact Public Health. I have done so in many ways throughout the Sacramento Region via volunteer or directly within the workforce. This recession (and my time without a job) has gotten me thinking.

Someone once told me: "When you are local, you should think globally and when you are global, to think locally."

Such true words that have resonated in my head. Therefore this is my test of faith that God will not only provide but that I will be a true vessel for Him and his work. For myself and the team from YAM to be the Lord's hands and feet. Yet I am at the beginning stages of all of this. We'll see what God's plan is in the end.

**I will continuously lift all of my concerns in prayer as I begin to formulate my thoughts for prayer and support letters to send to family and friends.**

Test 1,2,3...